One doctor I’m following after doing the world carnivore challenge has decided we should have a no fiber February challenge.

I almost made it through the Jan challenge. I ended up with 4 days of junk, 5 days of fasting, 20 days of exercise, and hopefully this month I’ll do better.

I have a few parameters set for Feb. I already ate some candy today, but I can make that my only day and end up better than last month. Why did I eat the sugar. Not hunger, very little craving, I need a reason. Think…Tired of the effort. Tired of trying and failing, tired of succeeding and being treated like a failure, just tired.

I’m challenging myself to get 10,000 steps a day. A push/pull/legs repeat with one day off a week. Frequency training with progressive overload. Experimenting. I’m recording my workouts for the rest of the year.  I’ll do my best to stick to carnivore. Mostly want to get around 100 grams of protein and fat and as little carbs as possible.

I’ve had a ton of stress to deal with most days for years. Not what I’m doing, but what is being done to me. I’ve spent so much effort to get away from it. It’s hurt my health completely. I’m spending this year getting it back.

I’ve spent the last few years working on getting ahead while having all I do get torn apart, destroyed. It’s been horrible.

I started this blog to get away from my last blog which was only one more place that was ruined. I’m never telling anyone about this blog. I don’t care who reads it, only I’ll never let anyone close enough to take it, to distort and twist my life and my life’s goals and purpose. Trust no one.

No one has a right to hurt others, only everyone feels they have the right to hurt me.

This is the first time I’ve been where I have no intention of knowing someone. I’ve spent most of my life trying to escape my abusers only to run into more when I finally fought my way free to try.

I want to talk about my life, or should I make this blog only about health, neutral. What I do, no feelings. It would still be about my life.

I like writing in my blog because it motivates me. Helps to sort my thoughts, keeps me company, feels safe (this new one, the old one was ruined by bad people).

I’ll post my workouts, meals, stats, and stuff. I’ll run this new blog like my old one before someone stole from it. Like I said I liked the blog, just hated the fact people ruined it. I’ll get over it, lol, just doing a little complaining.

The one thing I like is if I start now and ignore everyone and do what I have set in my mind to do, I’ll feel better for having at least tried and never gave up.